the accidental girl

It's that time of year again.. it's time for Monkey's bi-annual haircut. Being very high maintenance and a girlie girl, I get my hair well looked after by having it cut only once in a while. This is probably sacrilegious to the mani-pedi fashionista crew who believe that a woman's beauty is in her upkeep but who gives a flying sausage.
anyway! As it's a rare occurance, I have no idea what to do with my hair. I've giving up on growing it as once it gets to about the length it's at (shoulder blade) it starts to crimp and awkwardly curl and just looks like a cross between a bird's nest and frayed rope. You can help me choose! Here is my hair currently:

Ok, and these are the options:

Right.. so maybe a poll.. Lets take them as 1 to 4! Thanks kids

Monkey's friend summoned up the incredible courage needed to broach the topic of what we were "going to do" last night. I was supposed to go on a pub crawl for a society I'm part of but he insisted on seeing me, so I said he could meet me for a drink before I joined the masses of drunk freshers.

Admirably, he brought it up straight away and said that he didn't want our relationship to only comprise of what we'd talked about on the trip. Knowing I was sticking needles under his fingernails, I said I did want it to be limited to that... He kindly said he understood as I rambled on, making it worse... He said it shouldn't be weird between us now and I agree but how normal can it be when you know that they like you? I'm scared he'll forgive me too much because of his feelings and I'll abuse his respect. I know I have it in me.

We'll see.. he left soon after and I carried on the pubcrawl. 'til it was last man standing (aka me with the president and social sec of the society). The president being a past pull who I regret if only for his womanising ways and pumped up ego, although he is quite fit. Anyway, it was all very pleasant and helped me forget about the pain I'd just distributed.
Next, the Grecian...... don't know when and how exactly I'll shake him off apart from 'soon' and 'kindly'.... argh.

A time of contemplation for monkeys worldwide.. this monkey has come to the conclusion that the nervous sick feeling in her stomach and the anxiety mind-races she's suffered lately are from emotional stress. It's too difficult to pretend to love someone, it's too difficult to maintain a so-so relationship. So! Out with the old and in with the... nothing. It's good- judging by my timetable this year I have approximately 0.2 hours a week free time so no room for boyfriends.
Out with the Grecian.. I've seen him once since being back and it just felt wrong. I was difficult with him and deliberately awkward. I could feel my face contorting into a fake smile and the kneejerk responses to "I love you" and "I really missed you" failed to function. I smiled weakly and said "that's nice" and heard his heart crumble in the silence that followed. I ran away home to formulate how exactly I will do this....
No news from the friend in the previous post though he wants to see me. Again, I have to put my foot down and exert my anti-personality and be a bit mean. I'll tell him to hold no hope. I definitely know I want to be single.
The only good news being that I'm no longer obsessed with M! Hurrah! Saying that, I miss being in love. Especially now that I know it won't happen again until I've graduated.... although it's true you can't plan these things. My mum sat me down and had a big chat along the lines of the fact that I'll only meet the kind of men I admire in a university setting (being that I go weak at the knees for intellectuals and PhD wielding folk or at the least, musical prodigies...) then she told me that the person you most admire may not be the one you have a spark with but to ignore sparks as admiration is what counts. Now I'm confused but what I know is that I'm too young to make compromises so "he'll do for now" can wait. I've got a career to form....

Just a quickie today as opposed to my usual introspective nonsense- thank you all so much for the kind birthday wishes!! I spent it in Almaty in Kazakstan with great wine, good food and brilliant company so it was a very enjoyable birthday! Bye for now xx