I've hardly had time to breathe this week let alone bore you all with my usual tosh.
I had to learn to make a website you see. It was all being so confusing but then, with a nudge from a helpful pal, it all became clear and now Lo! I have a thesis website. It's all very exciting. There isn't any info on there really for the moment, but still, it's looking all right for an amateur!
Other news: autumn is the season for graduate job searches. Which is fine but I have to make the momentuous decision of either staying in the UK or going abroad. The latter representing bigger projects as structures have been hard hit by the oncoming recession here. Bigger projects and better, tax free, pay. Of course, if I stay here, then I see all my friends more often and I don't have such a scarily big move.
I also applied for a placement to be done from august, hopefully for at least 5 months so I can put off working until the new year. I'm procrastinating my future.. how sad is that?
What else... I never did text back for dinner. I think the period of 'mulling' is well and truly over! So operation 'stay single' is well under way. hurrah! Oh, I had to see V over the weekend. We were at a mutual friend's birthday party. It wasn't that awkward for me, just made me feel a bit guilty seeing him looking a little sad. We spoke for a bit because I didnt' want him to feel that I was ignoring him. His small hints at his sadness were an elementary mistake which I know I indulge in myself when heartbroken. It only works on a certain type of mood and I wasn't in the mood to be empathetic that night.
It put the dampeners on th eparty for me somewhat. There were friends there I wanted to see, to laugh with etc.. to be able to drink a little without him making some sideways comment about what a mess I am when drunk. (It's not strictly true- he's referring to the night I had at the end of exams last year: He was the last person in the world I wanted to see as I knew I was to break up with him in the morning but he turned up to pick me up from the club I was at with my friends anyway! So I couldn't stay until the end which immediately made me grumpy and I had to go from an amazingly euphoric night with them to a forced sobriety as he find exburance embarrassing. )
Anyway, his presence only had the effect of chasing me away to the other end of the bar where there was another group of friends and another party. I stayed there for an hour, just to dance and laugh. It was fun!
Anyway, I'm off to Glasgow this evening for a meeting and to see one of the guys who went to Bosnia with me.
